“Hello, baby,” Mom said, with a broad smile and wide eyes that had surprisingly become part of her character as of late.
The words, the phrasing, the inflection all reminded me of Mom’s sweet tone she used while cooing to the grandchildren when they were little. How she would scoop them up into her arms, toned from years of ravioli rolling, and nestle them into the crook between her collarbone and cheek.
When our son Davis was born, Mom, or “Nanna,” rocked him to sleep many afternoons, as he was somewhat of a fussy baby. He eventually grew to sleep even in cars, when not behind the wheel. Observing Mom as I entered into her living space, I recalled how she used to call Davis, her little snuggler (Sorry, Davis).
Standing over her now, I realized, she wasn’t talking to me
. She was speaking to the baby doll resting in her arms. A plastic baby doll. No, her behavior was not bizarre. In fact, it was quite normal.
About a year ago, a companion caregiver who visited Mom regularly, and treated Mom like her own, hit upon the idea to gift Mom the doll. The doll was wearing more clothes then than she had on now. But the doll’s frilly pink dress and blue eyes enticed Mom, who, every once in while even slept with the doll.
Occasionally, I brought in People magazines for us to read, because of their large print. But also, the cover sometimes featured a celebrity who had given birth, along with the new baby. “Oh, there, that one. Isn’t he something,” Mom said about Prince George.
Recently, there had been a cover picturing Christine Aguilera, with her daughter Summer Rain. While Mom was not pleased with the name, she adored the baby wearing a tight pink hat and sporting startling blue eyes.
Sometimes, with my iPad and Mom seated at my side, I search Google Images, using the term baby. Mom is so taken by the plethora of images, she is overwhelmed and speechless. She giggles and can’t seem to settle on which one was her favorite.
But, when I heard Mom say, “Hello, baby,” for a split second, I thought she was directing her helloat me. Instead, she was swinging the baby doll back and forth, as she rocked in the “maternity rocker,” and peering into the doll’s eyes, saying, “Hello, baby.”
Often, when the baby doll is in her arms, other residents stop and ask, “Boy or girl?” “Can I hold her?” “What’s his or her name?” They tower over Mom with jealousy and wistfulness.
Mom doesn’t typically respond, but I do. “It’s a girl.” Or, “About three months.” Or “Would you like to hold her?”
“How lucky,” Mary Lou responds. “Isn’t that something,” Big Jim says.
The doll didn’t come with tag stating her name. I’m not certain a name would have stuck. Her name is Baby Doll, and that works for Mom. Occasionally, Baby Doll has gone missing. Meaning, one of the other residents has taken off with the doll. Sometimes, the staff has to put out an APB for Mom’s doll.
Put something meaningful in a person’s hands, I harken back to. Sometimes its coffee, or a snack, which is how I learned to not complain about Mom’s eating, unless it’s the whole hunk of brie she once tried to consume at Christmas. Eating is a meaningful act.
In their stories, the authors included other meaningful items, such as baseballs, violins, trains, pipes and wrenches (for a former plumber). When Mom visits my house, I put a wooden spoon in her hand. She still loves to stir a good pot of sauce. And despite the lack of babies in our family (no rush, kids), she still loves good hugs. If no one else is around, the baby doll is a fair substitute as her little snuggler.
A mother never forgets how to love. And she never forgets how to love a baby, even when the baby is a forty-nine year old daughter resting on her shoulder, asking the big questions about life.
She will wrap her free hand around my cheek. “Well, there. Its there,” she’ll respond, and hold up her baby doll.
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